Friday, June 6, 2008

The final countdown

Today has been an emotional day. The kids have been hard the last few days and I'm pretty tired which is usually a pretty bad combination, but what has really thrown me into an emotional tailspin is the countdown to the move. It's funny...I haven't really been emotional at all during the last few weeks. Like I've said 100 times, this will be a bittersweet move for us but I have been mostly excited and ready to start this next stage in our lives. I feel like I've had a lot of closure over the last few months so it hasn't been as overwhelming as it could have been. That is until today. I was emailing my friend Lynda about scheduling some time for our families to spend together over the next few weeks and took a moment to count the days. 17 of them to be exact. Now, every time I think of that I start crying. 17 days is nothing. It will go in the blink of an eye and we will drive away from what has been our life for the last 3 years. We will drive away from Luke's first best friends. We will drive away from the only place that Caleb has ever lived. We will drive away from the kids that Kate has been in class with for two years now and who we will most likely never see again. We will drive away from the Adamsons who have been our family over the last 3 years while both of our extended families have been so far away. We will drive away from a place that we have grown to love deeply.

I am so excited to be close to my family and Chris' family again. I'm excited to be able to drive over and hang out with my closest friends anytime I want. I'm excited about having a house with more space and about the chance to come home to the place where Chris and I started our life together. But, I have a feeling that the next 17 days will be much harder than I have anticipated. I have definitely begun the mourning process and I'm not really looking forward to how my crazy pregnancy hormones are going to magnify that. It should be an interesting journey to say the least...

5 comments:

bugs & sunshine said...

that is so stinkin' sad.

i am praying for you guys.

Tricia said...

Well, bless your heart... all this emotional moving stuff and pregnant hormones all at the same time. Good grief!

I'll be thinking about y'all over these next few weeks, and praying everything goes smoothly! :-)

Brea said...

Even though I never see you guys, it makes me sad anytime someone departs. But what a huge consolation to be closer to Rob and Emily! Praying all the best for your family in the days to come!

The Booys said...

I wish I had crazy preggers hormones to blame on for my tears! You always get me with your pure honesty. We love you for that. I am starting to understand a little bit of that feeling myself. So much to look forward to, but leaving behind a lot of firsts and true friends. We will be praying for the next 17+ days.

bugs & sunshine said...

hey sister! i have been praying tons for you the last couple of days. i wanted to call last night, but the hour time jump always gets me and it was 9:45pm your time. anyway, i'm praying you cats have good travel time today and that your hearts have peace and joy and anticipation for the new chapter of your lives! love ya!